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I miss the times when we'll be together, I miss our beautiful moments
I miss when you hug me if i'm feel cold and my body temperature was rises and your hugs make me feel better :)
I miss when you angry to me if i forgot to drink my drugs
I miss when you angry to me if i forgot to eat
I miss when you angry if i'm sick .
I miss when you forbid me to eat icecream if i'm colds, and you promised for me if I returned to be healthy again, you will buy an icecream, and that icecream it's just for me
I miss when we join hands, and you keep and protect me from anything that would threaten the safety of my life
I miss the moment when you kissed my cheek and i kiss your cheek too .
I miss when you and i was sat together on one chair . tell a lot of jokes for me, talked with me, and when you and i were face to face, etc
and all our sweet story !
before we end this relationship, i feel really happy if i'm with you :)
i feel i'm complete if i'm with you.
you and i, together, having a lovely relationship, and that relationship is forever .
and i feel you're a piece of my life .
but now ?
it's really impossible to said, THIS RELATIONSHIP IS FOREVER
i'm gonna miss you so much, miss our story, our journey
I always shed a tear when I remember something about our stories
but that before i know something, something fake, fake !
turns out, the man's love is fake love
Initially, he comes to reinforce my life . he removes any distress, disappointment and sadness of my heart . and presents a new love for me
but now?
he came to add to the chaos of my life
he actually increased the frustration and sadness of my heart
so all of a sudden, he pulled back the hope that he gave to me
i feel distress again
i feel disappointment again
i feel sadness again, again, and again
i want to cry, but if i'm crying it's just make me loss and i lost all time, an efective time . and efective time to study

now, i'm realize you're a liar men and your love for me is really fake ! i'm stupid if i'm still loving you, and i think it's true ! but the reality, i'm still loving you dear . i'm like a donkey . stupid and silly . stuck in the same mistake a second time. you hurt my heart and always make me sad, but why i always loving you ?
my little heart says i should and must fixed to loving you, and survive with my feeling to you . but why ?? it's really freak ! i don't know what's the meaning of this statement
i'm really very very confused now . what must i do for this ?
survive to loving you or i must to leaving you and our memories now ?
i'm really miss our memories, our story, and our journey to study to love eachother .
i always remember we start this from we are being a brother and sister, after that we was found a little taste of fit and comfortable and after that we have a lot of journey of love . it was a little story, but having a lot of meaning . i want you back for me again dear :'(
start with new story, and new feeling
I promise, i want to change my attitute . the good less attitude . give me one more chance
I promise I will not be a girl who was grumpy again like what you want from me
i'm a grumpy girl, and you hate a grumpy girl, right ?
so, i promise to change all, it just for you
cause i'm really loving you
please, come back again to me, and please don't leave me alone
please dear, until this time, i can't remove, remove that feeling from my heart
i hope you read this

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masih belajar :)
merci